step back

Yesterday was a hard day. I've decided to take a step back and spend the morning in the apartment in San Borja, woking on this blog and avoiding my frustrations.

I am here because I was inspired to come. However, this motivation comes undone with frequency. It is not the poverty, disease, dirt, grey, cold, or incompetance that wears me down.

It is the realization that I am ill-equipped to make change. I console my anxieties by believing that I have yet to hit my stride.

Our goal is interesting. In plain language: to help poor children of the shantytowns of Carabayllo develop their academic, social, and physical health.

I've yet to figure out how to go about doing that.